today is nothing out of the ordinary. exept something feels different. i cant put my finger on it but it feels as though something is about to happen. what? i dont know.
ive been swimming three times a week sonce i moved here. sometimes i go just once a week sometimes more. last night i was supposed to go to ladies sim which sounds very outdated. basically all the middle age women in nottingham who are on weight watchers or slimming world go swimming on wednesday night between 9 and 10. i often join them and it makes me feel a ton better about myself. thats a pretty mean reason for going but compared to some of these people i look pretty good. and seen as im someone who privately obsesess about what they look like this is a great feeling- even if it as others misery! anyway my point was that last night i did not go because for some reason i went for weeks without having a good chat to a few people and last night they all phoned at once and i felt loved all evening.
now all i have to do is fix everyones problems and the world will be a dandy place again. if i had three wishes my first one would be a totally selfish request: Lots and lots of money so i didnt have to stay awake worrying about the bills and i could buy a record shop. my second would be to have the answers for my friends when they are upset or worried the third would be to be completly happy and everyone around me to be happy.
im such an idealist.
i dont know why im writeing today because i dont have time and nor do i have much to say but sometimes i just need to write because if i dont i talk to myself.
10 days til payday.. 14 days til i see my friends again. maybe ill start doing a count down of cool things on here- remind myself of fun things to look forward too.
if the song lyrics in the subject box appear to be a little 'weird' or 'middle of the road for jenni' its because in our office the radio only gets BBC Radio Nottingham and they place a choice selection of easy listening!!
i want love. still.
