ive forgotten what it feels like to walk home drunk after midnight, ive forgotten what it feels like to make love, ive forgotten what it feels like to smile and really mean it, ive forgotten what itslike to listen to a record and for it to make me feel better, maybe because im the only one that can make all of this feel better. ive forgotten what it feels like to feel anything but this darkness, this depression that is holding me back from living. really living.
iv put myself out there a little bit. i know he knows but does he? is he willing to admitt he knows?
Listening to bob dylan at 5.30 in the morning does nothing to help. its the lyrics that really got me today. the really listening to the world. just being quiet and listening to the world. to everybody running round and never stopping and all you want to do is scream STOP, JUST FUCKING STAND STILL FOR GODSAKE!
i dont recomend that you tell a lie, or even tell a lie and have to cover it up with another one. not unless its helping you be happy in that case i think you will be just fine. god im tired.
